capricorn826

dear pat, you hurt me. I gave you everything I could have given you. Then you leave me. You say that you love me and care about me. Feel so hurt right now. I didn't go to my prom because of yours. I tried to make it work but u seemed that you were pushing away. I can' deal with this pain. You hurt me just as all the other guys had done. You lied to me saying you will not hurt me. I wish i can move on like you but why does it hurt so bad for me. I am here crying while your there going with you friends like nothing happened. You cared about your friends more than me. It hurted me every single day knowing that you didnt want to see me. I love you and it was hard for me to say but i do.

Why do I always get what I don't want and want something I don't have? I don't understand why I do. It saddens me really why I don't like what I have and not get what I want. I feel its pretty greedy for me to say this. I like this guy and I wish I wouldn't and I want to force myself to like my bf. I like him when he is around but when I'm not around him I think of this guy that I like. I just want me to love him not the other guy who I have no chance with ever.

I don't give a $@!?! >:D I just want my hair back the same color....

When you just want to hit yourself in the head.